From My Computer

Yesterday my father got my computer fixed. Upon booting it up after being without it for a year, I found this among my documents. It's a little different then my usual posts but I wanted to include it on here anyway. Hopefully it means as much to you as it did to me.

A key is a secret used to open a blocked passage or treasure. A blocked passage or treasure is sealed to either protect a secret or to dissuade others from approaching and entering. Some passages are blocked forever where others can be opened by anything. The most well protected secret is the secret to an individual’s soul. Only God possesses a key to everybody’s soul. What I believe love to be concerns this idea regarding a key and a locked soul. When love exists, God, in his infinite wisdom has opened the door to someone’s soul, for only God can arrange for such a gift to be bestowed upon us, the gift of love, but God allows us to decide if this love is something we want to keep. In other words, it is up to the soul possessor to allow others into their secret passage. Sometimes the wrong people are allowed into this sacred area…these people don’t see how sacred and important the secret really is and thus they disrespect it. When this happens it is up to the host to escort these undeserving individuals out the door. Once they have been removed from the secret place it is up to soul possessor to either lock the door tight and try to clean up the mess or he/she can ask others, that are always invited in, to help clean up the mess. Sometimes it is better to clean up alone and other times it is imperative to accept the help offered by others. Thus, God opens the door to love and it is up to individual soul possessors to determine if that love stays or leaves. That is love. True love is a little different. True love involves a soul possessor and a soul key. Every soul is a key maker. The soul has the ability to create a soul key. It takes a lot of time to shape and mold this key and individuals generally do not know when their keys are made because soul keys cannot be sensed, they can only be used. The soul key is unique because although individuals create them, only the keys know when they have met their key holes. Another thing that is unique about soul keys are in order for them to work, another soul key has to be present in order for it to unlock the passageway to an individual’s most sacred treasure, he/she’s undying love. The other key is possessed by another individual and only the correct match will allow for the passageway to be unlocked. Finally, both keys need to turn at the same time in order for true love to be unlocked. Once it is unlocked these possessors of soul keys enter into a different world. Hand in hand they walk together, without any fear or hesitation, into the land of True Love.

The Dichotomy of Love

I, once again, have been away for too long. Almost every day I think of some new thing that I want to think through, which I do by writing, but I don't make the time to do it. As a result, I think I've been more stressed then usual, which in turn makes me not write, and the vicious cycle continues. Since I don't need anymore stress in my life, while Sophia is napping I'm going to be writing. One of the biggest things that has been stressing me out is trying to find balance. Up until Sophia was born I thought I was a decent wife. I was fun, flirty, and relatively carefree. While I'm not very tidy I am a good cook, and since I married an Italian I figured that was more important anyway. Well, just as I was figuring all of this married stuff out, Sophia arrived. It has been three months now since she was born and I finally feel that I have this parenting thing down, at least for this stage. I know what her cries mean, and when she needs to nap, and how to make her smile and giggle with the utmost glee. The only problem I have now is how to combine these two roles together. To keep Sophia happy she needs to be the focus of my attention, but to keep my husband happy he needs my attention too. For the past few months he has been on cruise control. While this is a useful function to have and occasionally employ, it's not a good permanent state to be in. This last week we've decided to try to plan a date night every other week. It can be coffee, dinner, or even watching a movie at our place; anything as long as it's just the two of us. Soph has made me love David more but has given me less time time to love him with; an interesting dichotomy only people with children truly know.